Not so boring journeys anymore...

I've found a new way that strangely keeps me occupied wherever I travel to, regardless of how long the journeys are. Now I'm even enjoying the rides because they provide precious solitary time when my mind could think of creative new things to express my feelings...

I think I'm learning how to enjoy and spending some previously wasted time more productively now... & that really lightens up my thinking and mood for the whole day!

It feels like I'm a newborn baby with little burden on his mind...

New life, new friends...

Was chatting to a good friend recently about relationship... He said that men have higher chances of success if we actually enjoy the process rather than setting a goal before going after a girl..

Interesting thought. For me, it's really odd to enjoy the process of anything because all I cared about in the past was just the end result. Maybe it's my upbringing, or maybe it's just in my genes, but whatever it is, I've never really enjoyed the process of getting somewhere or something. For example, I've never enjoyed a simple trip to the cinema by tram because all I thought about was the end product (the movie, duh..).

Different story with my previous dating experiences. It has always been I'm attracted to someone, and right after getting them, I almost immediately lost interests in them. Why is that so, you ask? Difficult question to answer. It's probably a combination of different factors, but I believe the decisive one is that I've not seen through their characters thoroughly beforehand and when the time comes for me to integrate them into my life, it puts me off completely. The truth is, I have always been 'misled' by the physical attributes all these time and has not cared much to understand these people more before asking them out. Now I'm not saying that all of them had bad characters, but they just have very different characteristics from those that I value. The next thing is, I'm not someone who can deceive myself forever and live with someone that I'm only attracted to physically. Therefore, the conclusion has always been the same for almost all of my past experiences: break up before it even really began...

Not the case with my current target. I'm spending much more time with her recently and I've seen a lot of things unravel within this period. It's true that I'm attracted to her physically, but what I value more about her is her almost flawless nature and her ability to unlock people's mind easily. In this short time,she has made me aware that there are still so much more outside what I have been concentrating on for the last 3 years. Through her, I can see my life in another new perspective which I haven't been able to do because of my clouded views....

I thank GOD for the time he has set for me to get to know her better and also for making a new group of friends that are ever so supportive.. Thank you for bringing them into my life and letting me connect with them...

Confused little soul...

Q: Is it the time to give up now? Is it the time to move on? Should I take more time to know more 1st before deciding????

This could turn out to be the beginning of an end, or maybe the start of something new...

God, please guide me and lead me to the correct path....

Sydney & Melb + graduation photos!

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New segment: Notable quotes

Prologue: We judge how good a comedian is by how good s/he tells the jokes, and a politician by how good s/he is at giving speeches (e.g. Bill Clinton and Adolf Hitler). There are also almost always sentences spoken by them that define their more famous days and likewise for TV shows, their more famous hours. In this new segment, I will include some of the more recent TV shows that I watch (& can be bothered to copy down some of the quotes I like..) and also major speeches from important people around the world. Will update it as I go (& hopefully I can get some input from the readers too! :)

Here goes:

Even in pain you can sleep, but if you inflict pain you can’t sleep…
‘Full Metal Alchemist ep 25’

She can’t fall for you if you’re not there to catch her
‘OC season 2 ep 5’

‘Sometimes it’s not about the message, it’s about the messenger’
OC season 2 ep 16 – Sandy

‘Sometimes I think you talk just to make some noise’
Ryan to Seth OC season 1

However, the second biggest nation in Oceania -- New Zealand -- is against the move, as Australia leaving would make a weak confederation even weaker. It is possible that the Kiwis will follow their Australian cousins. Head of New Zealand Soccer, Graham Seatter told the New Zealand Herald that, "There’s really only one nation at a higher level for us to aspire to beat. Take that nation away then all we are is a nation for the islands to aspire to beat. No disrespect, but I don’t want to be in a competition for tallest dwarf."
‘Kiwi soccer chief on soccer competition in Oceania region’

Funny quotes – new meaning to sentences

“I’m just going to powder my nose
'Uma Thurman in Pulp Fiction’
New meaning given in the movie: Snorting drugs....

Lucky Day!

Spent the whole day catching up with old friends, which was really nice since I haven't hung out with them for quite a while. To top it all, a string of lucky things just kept on coming one after another. Certainly hope it keeps on rolling...

Joined my Trinity friends for dinner just now and while we were there waiting to be served, I received a sms from my brother saying that our client was very pleased with our product and they were negotiating the details for the contract. Expect no major problems and the deal to be closed once the client gets back and emails me later. I've finally closed my first major deal after 3 years of hard work and sleepless nights, & I hope this will keep me financially independent before I even start working. If everything goes according to plan, I will be earning (can't quote the exact figure..) roughly twice what normal graduates get, and best of all, it's almost TAX FREE!! Don't want to get my hopes too high up yet, but I think this is what I deserve after years of slogging...

After we finished dinner, Derrick & I went to the new bowling place at Melb Central and used our free game coupon to get a free game each. We were already at the 10th try when the system broke down and the pins were not lowered. We then asked the people to fix the problem and they finally managed to fix it, but not before we asked for another free game because of all the waiting time involved! 2 games for nothing, even though our bowling skills can be improved much further...

In addition to the free bowling game, I also had a $10 voucher for the arcade and we intended to use it then. Derrick suggested we took a tour of the place to look at the games 1st before actually using it, & that was when I discovered people were playing free Virtua Cops! We had a few rounds of that and decided to wait up for the Daytona 2, which was a cool game with moving seats when players spin out of control or crash onto the wall. Tried every single level (since it's all free!) and managed to complete around 7-8 games before someone approahed and asked us whether we were Harvey Norman's employees! Apparently they were holding a party there and they had booked the whole place, including the whole arcade place and that was why all the games were free. We left after that, but our entertainment tab (including the bowling games) for tonight must have come close to $100 and we got all that w/o spending a single cent!

& that wasn't all. The best thing that happened to me today was that the girl I have been most 'impressed' by and the one that I have been going after for a long, long time has finally 'noticed' my existence, and I certainly hope there is more to come in the near future. We have actually been friends for a long time but all the while I've felt that she was not aware of my fondness for her and I certainly had no intention to push for anything since it could be jeopardising our friendship. I've a hunch a common friend might have told her about my feeling and I could feel that she's responding in a positive sense when she talked to me today. It's something that I haven't sensed before from her when we chatted in the past, which were more like casual talks between normal friends. That's a good start, considering that she wasn't 'frightened' when she heard I have feelings for her (assuming that my hunch is correct...)

So what's so special about her? Well, there's just something about her that I don't see in a lot of other girls. The moment we first met & she smiled, the warmth and elegance that she exuded had completely mesmerized me & I was determined to at least try to win her over. Her friendliness has won her many friends and at the same time many suitors, of which only 1 she finally accepted (They have since broken up, but that was before I even knew her..). There are a lot more things that I have to say about her, but I will probably write that in the next few posts...

Anyway, the things that happened today really made up for all the s***ty things that came up yesterday, such as finding out that most likely I'll have to go back to SG in the coming March after consultation with an immigration lawyer. More on that on my next few posts (as I'm too lazy to continue writing now...)

Update..

Cancelled my trip to Sydney because client bailed on me, which is sort of good anyway since I can really use the money for something else. Since then, I've also attended the 2nd round interview for the marketing job at Big Fish and got offered the job....

A bit of hesitation for me because I don't know yet whether I want to take up this job. Reasons:

a) Derrick has started the job for 2 days already and he hasn't made any sales, which means he gets paid $0 for 2 days.... The same situation could possibly apply to me.... (The system works this way: you get paid at least 400 bucks/week if you make 1/2 the average sales amount)

b) Have to be in the office by 7.30 in the morning + coming back only at around 6 in the afternoon, Which means 10 1/2 hrs of work, sometimes for nothing....

c) My parents are going to be here next week anyway & I'm not looking to start until at least after they leave

I'm really putting more hope & time in my other business dealings, although it's mainly monetary and doesn't allow me to be able to apply for PR over here. That's actually one of the incentive of working in Big Fish because we could definitely stay there for 1/2 year and get extra points for the PR application, although it still might not be enough....

Seriously have to look for other jobs soon since this doesn't look like a good option...