Woo hoo! Received an unexpected sms today

Probably the best surprise I've received in the last few years =)

Black or white?

You have heard of racism in football, racism in wars, but this will be taking it to a new level:

racism in the cyberworld as well??

Waited the whole night for the sms that never arrived ...

Reminded me of what happened 3 years ago. Maybe it is a mistake afterall

Of christmas carols & tunes (Vol. 1)

Met her for the first time yesterday...

We have 'known' each other for almost 9 months now,
It started awkwardly initially,
and it took a while for both of us to get warmed up to each other,
through the unexpected twist of her ups & downs in her relationships.

Unknowingly I began playing the counsellor,
Adding an unbiased opinion and steering her back into reality when she goes off course,
and slowly but surely she started opening up more & more,
and that was the start of our friendship.

We comforted each other in tough times,
and also shared our thoughts and dreams.
Our exchanges became more frequent,
and there was always these lingering thoughts:

How could we trust each other when we have never met before,
& will this dissipate if we meet up one day?
as in, what if our visions of what we think of the other are completely different from reality?
And should we actually take that risk & put all we have on the poker table?

We discussed it and quickly discarded that notion,
& decided to meet up yesterday as she'd only be in singapore for a few days.
After a long wait due to her getting lost in the orchard labirynth tunnels,
we finally met up, accompanied by the christmas tunes being played on a piano in the background.

She was exactly what I had expected her to be:
Demure, elegant, friendly and worldly.
I remember she had told me sometimes she can be a total klutz on bad days,
but yesterday was definitely not one of those days.

If my image of her had been reinforced through our meeting,
I think it will be the exact opposite for her image of me.
I tended to be ineloquent in front of the ladies I fancied in the past,
and this time it has proved to be the same yet again.

She'll be leaving the country tomorrow,
& I doubt I've left a strong enough impression on her.
Like she pointed out in her previous email,
it feels like she 'knows' me, but she really doesn't.

We won't meet again anytime soon,
and God knows when I'll be there to visit her.
but the one thing I'm sure of,
is that I have to fight for that future, and grab it with both my hands.

TCFS - Albert House 2002

Trinity Foundation - Albert House 2002

Feeling nostalgic.... Apart from Derrick, I have no idea where the rest of people in the picture are. Gone are the days when we would study together in the small coffee room on the 2nd floor, preparing frantically for the forthcoming maths exam, & then ended up chit-chatting non-stop instead of doing real work =)

Looking at the date in this picture, this must be taken after our final exam when we were having our almost-routine supper at Universal. Didn't expect that to be the last gathering we'd have, since we've practically never had another outing together since then.

Hope you guys are doing great! =) I really miss the great times we shared....

Finally had 3-4 hour of good sleep last night, after 4 nights of rolling around on my bed without even getting a single minute of shutdown time!


Tried every trick I knew of that would work previously: alcohol, sleeping pill, reading before bedtime, etc. Amazingly none worked this time, & even the sleeping pill which was so ever reliable previously didn't too. I remember getting up at around 3 am & I was still feeling 100% alert mentally, although the rest of my body did become wobbly. I hope that's not an indication that I've built up resistance to the current medication and forces me to upgrade to a stronger dose!


Anws, after feeling so terrible for the past few days (and ironically too I had the most work to do in those few days during the last month!), today I'm finally feeling much better. It got so bad that even a 4-hr sleep became the ultimate tonic for me, even though it'd have done nothing for most other people.


Actually I remember getting forcibly awakened up this morning at 7 only because I had a bad dream: a few disgusting crawlies (which happens to be the insect I hate the most!) roaming around our house. Those cockroaches, I must get even with 'em next time for disturbing my precious sleep!


I realised I haven't been posting a lot, but there will be more coming up next month, coz I'm finally getting my first BB! Sometimes when I'm on the road & I have so much inspiration to write, I don't always have my laptop with me, & once I'm back at home, I can't recall much of the things I wanted to express. Since BB comes with data plan, I guess it'll be much easier for me to do it on the go!

Anws, to end this post, I'll leave you with the pics of my beloved niece =) she's 7 months old now, and has been the source of endless joy for all of us. Hope it does the same for you too! @Have a great weekend!

3 level to working:

1) something you're passionate about
2) something you're good at
3) something that keeps you paid & alive

I think I'm at no.2&3 at the moment. Haven't found the cause to elevate me to No.1, and even if I do manage to find it, it's probably not gonna be covering no.3 for me...

Guess I'll be stuck in doing something I'm moderately good at, but at least it'll keep me alive for now..